new rule...

anything posted after falling off the wagon gets deleted :)

as it is, I feel better today, but I've got to find distractions for midnight when I can't go anywhere or do anything for 7 hrs till I fall asleep...

my mind becomes rational again....Gawd...dont know how I'm gonna make it thru winter...can't go for walks and can't chill outside near the lake...that's painful stuff then...

RB