according to my thing I have 663 posts - 3 more and I can be the 666 guy - (seriously - I should put up a webpage trying to pitch myself as the Antichrist - that guy'll be popular) -

FYI I'm out from the 4th to the 14th and again the week afterwards - so veddy few updates in June, Methinks...

Twice now I've dreamed about my first girlfriend - when we broke up I deliberately DIDN'T dream of her - if I saw her face in a dream it'd wake me up on the spot - she was one of the several factors that contributed to a spiral of depression that only becoming a hermit cured me of.

sort of, apparently.

RB

I am pissed off in a special way that would give me the rights to homicide if I could find the motherfucker that sold me a defective alarm clock.

Won an easy seat to the Pokerstars Mil - $500 this time (end of the month) - after my near miss at the beginning of the month, I made sure I was registered and went to bed -

and overslept by 90 min - woke up with 1500 chips, 75/150 blinds, and near the bottom with 1K players left.

10 hands later get AQ, get all in vs AJ and he spikes the 3 outer right on the flop -

seriously - someone somewhere deserves death...fuckers.

I do believe that is my most depressing poker tourney all year - my alarm is STILL on, like it never rang, and I never turned it off...WTF? - FUCK!!!!!!!!

RB

The Christian Left is on the Rise - you may consider me one of them at this time -

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/12879318/

we will come, turn your women into baby breeders, take away your rights, kill gays and adulterers, and convert everyone over to the love of Jesus whether they like it or not -

ok, not really, but someone's gotta stand up to the Religious Right and cry bullshit on their crap theology.

RB

as I predicted, here I come, starting the inevitable trek back to the quick and simplicity of a quickie relationship.

Where I can just be in and out quick - if we got 20 min, I got 20 min - and if we get some more time, we can just kick back and take our time - and when I'm ready to boot her ass out the door, out she goes -

I am speaking of course, of my recent attempts at grinding out a limit bankroll again.

I feel like I'm proving myself enough in tournaments that I wanted to play some limit tables and do some butt kicking - Two days I did Canterbury, but now for the next three days, I'll be working 12 hrs shifts -

to come home, fire up the pc on the spot, and get 120 hands in, not in a 3 hrs drive/run, but in 60 min, that just kicks so much ass - I do hate the uncertain time commitment of a tourney - but do like not risking a lot -

but then, if you're risking only 30BB/table, that's not a big risk -

my inintial PT stats on today's table suggested a very TA-P player - and I mean the preflop stats are passive and the post stats are donkworthy 3's and 4's -

this is a terrible thing to think - but I could move home and retire anytime if I could play poker for a living - hell - I could move home anyways - get a small cabin and some I-net and just have fun playing poker -

sorta sad to say the pursuit of money as a means to security has been on my mind heavily as of late - hilarious seeing as how it provides neither happiness nor true security -

what can ya do..
RB

starting to get used to final tables - took 2nd this morning in a tourney.

a 3 buck limit tourney with 135 players.

they can't all be the fucking WSOP - still worked out to about $20/hr - LOL.

RB

There is a new book coming out - a good one, I hope - about the rise of Christian Nationalism - I've been writing out a standard reply to critics of the book that I know will spring up. - The book is coming but the author writes for Salon and the book is reviewed here

Do these people know their opponents? - Let me help ya a bit.

spent a few years in Fundamentalist schools and colleges during my formative years - I was socially awkward growing up and latched onto a church near my house who had a 100 person school where we were housed in seperate dorms, had a 10pm curfew, and believed sex before marriage unchristian - I shook with fear at rumors of renegade Homosexuals and Devil Worshippers taking America down the path that was clearly not a Christian Nation - I was there in 1992 as they watched fascinated at the first Gulf War while I shook thinking - "Why are we backing this war?" - but I suspect as time went on I converted - In fact, I followed the Republican voting line up to 2000 - primarily on an issue that was pounded into our heads over and over again - Abortion.

Nothing will sum up the Right's opposition to the Democratic party like Abortion - it will be a topic brought up almost every week in a sermon somewhere in a town's churches.

After two years I transferred to a slightly larger campus of 1000+ kids where Billy Graham once served as an impromptu President before he started the Crusades. I was in this a Christian College Television Lounge the night Clinton won and you'd have thought someone told them that the Da Vinci Code was true - LOL - The fact he attended church, was a Baptist, and a self-proclaimed christian meant nothing to them - he wasn't a Conservative Christian..

Despite all this, I still call myself a Christian, but after 4 or 5 years of not liking the Religious Right's version of the Gospel, I went over the wall.

been reading Sojourners and Martin Luther King Jr. a lote more lately, trying to reconnect with the Jesus I read about - the one who preached love and mercy and even meekness and non-violence. Mostly I just go back to the Bible and reconnect - things seem clearer to me now, like the proverb about how with much knowledge comes much sorrow - I didn't know what the fuck that meant in 1992 - I do now.

This article sums up for me nicely the rumors and rumblings I've been hearing from the few fringe contacts I have in the Religious Right - the troops are getting ready to do battle - and people I didn't think I would have considered Christian Nationalists - people like James Kennedy, - and Evangelicals willing to back the party of "mammom" like James Dobson and Gary Bauer - men I almost admired once.

The faithful will truly believe they're doing God's Will - The current unholy alliance, between the leaders of the Religious Right and Republicans resembles very closely the deals cut between the Religious and Political leaders of Jesus' day - to perpetuate serious Un-Christian behavior you need the two working together -

They have no excuse either - it's very clear in the Bible - the love of Money is the root of all evil, and know what? - I gotta tell ya - the more and more I look the more I'm starting to agree.

Jesus told them to be as gentle as doves and as clever as serpents - and it's like they're either clever as doves or gentle as serpents.

Now let me tell you why I'm worried. Why they worry me maybe more then you.

Some of the prophecies that they believe are interpreted as being that the Messiah/Armegeddon will return before the generation that saw the re-creation of Israel completely passes away. - that counts to most of them as 1947.

that gives us almost 60 years so far and 20-30 to go - you get enough of them believing that a war in the Middle East will usher in the misery and agony needed to bring back the joy of the Messiah, and you got some serious issues - Shit I'm almost scared to write on paper -

We know that the Religious Right will turn a blind eye to wrongs if they believe it's God's will - the Israeli killings of Palestinians, while abhorant, to them, is just them protecting what God says they can do. In their world, the Christian God gives permission to kill, despite everything he preached while on Earth.

These guys would let a war start if they thought it fulfilled Biblical prophecy - just saying....and you know their Allies in the Republican party can find a fiscal reason to start a war there - oil -

but then I thought - after all, if God IS COMING back and the 2nd coming is a day of Reckoning, then it would signal the end of his patience -

If I were God, a bunch of fucking numbnuts claiming to do my will while starting a "Holy War' for Oil vs. Islam - yah, I could see where that would piss Jesus off enough to come down and bust heads. - That's not exactly "Love One Another as I have Loved You" in action there, folks.

We live in interesting times friends - interesting times, and they will get more so.

RB

More poker stories - sick of my winnings yet? - LOL - - just a quickie -

with this influx of new cash, I've been sorta picking up one or two more toys but I intend to start re-investing eventually - I need to get my game back up a couple more notches -

I took 500 out and put it in a site to clear a bonus but it became immediate that I didn't like the vibe/table/software -

so I'm sitting here trying to justify ways i can play out this 500 and get my bonus, and I can't seem to track hands with pokertracker with it - it bugged me to no degree -

so I'm sitting here thinking about it, and I realized my peace of mind was of primary importance and withdrew the $478 I still had there - (lost $22 in a tourney - LOL) -

I remember a marketing teacher once told me that peace of mind is a virtue to a product even if it's only perceived - I think the same goes for both the stuff they try to sell you and the stuff you measure on your own.

Where the hell is my WSOP seat and my poker groupies and my female poker players with all the knowledge and tricks to make BOTH my games better - LOL

what good is winning 196th in the damn Million Dollar Guarantee if it doesn't have groupies, man... -

speaking of smoking hot female poker players, Jennifer "Jennicide" Leigh seems to have turned up the smoulder content on her website - I've always been a fan and have probably crushed on her more then I should (she's a geek girl, from what I hear) - but I dunno - this latest move reminds me of Lindsey Lohan dying her hair blonde - it don't work for me.

and yet my opinion means nothing though it be honest - alas and woe - LOL - anyways on to better bullshit - next couple months are gonna be crazy - I need a calendar to actually mark all this stuff down -

Will be in Vegas the 18th-23rd as part of a Networkers plan - I have a bad bad feeling I'm gonna wish I had reserved my hotel room a bit better - damn...guess I'll find out tonight.

RB

out in 196th for about $933, or maybe $186/hr.

not the worst day I've ever had :)

RB

ok, here's the skinny...at the risk of TOTALLY fucking up my day and jinxing myself, here's the situation. But I won't post it till we're past the mile marker.

played an 11 rebuy turbo satellite for the Pokerstars $215 ths morning. I got my AA and QQ cracked, so I rebought 5 times plus an addon for $70 - I missed my seat and bubbled but that paid $110 total.

so now I won $40 so I enter the $36 satellite - I win my seat in that. I've been up all night and may have to look at a loft at 3pm so I unregister with the intent of re-registering if I feel up for it.

I sleep 5 hrs, get up and BARELY, and I mean BARELY get re-registered for the tourney. my desktop locked up/seized during a restart so I had to reboot a 2nd time and literally - in a tourney of 5K people, got late registration.

I am now about 50 players from the money - that's 750 to be precise. I just made a couple questionable folds with coinflip hands (AK suited and 44) because I've never made the money and I'd be risking my tourney viability if I called or reraised - I'm currently in 88th place and it wasn't worth it - I'm playing my position and first action more then my cards these days.

btw - I'm a serious luckbox - should have been busted about 3 times - my 2 pair snapped off bottom trips one hand - that was the big one that nearly killed me - but somehow I stick around - thank goodness AQ and AQ limped with my A9 on an A9x flop - LOL.

and since I didn't wanna jinx myself - I waited to post this till I was offically in the money for the first time on my $215 - good practice for the WSOP ;) -

I'll update ya when it's done.

pax
RB

I think someone from work is reading this blog - go away and leave me alone.

RB