holy fuck....

it's 7:40 am and I just got off work and I'm considering going to the bar/liquor store at 8am.

yes, the night was that bad....the kind that gives you chest pains from stress - jesus....at least I'm off for the next 4 days.

somedays I worry someone's gonna say I screwed up one too many times....or that I'm too high up the food chain for my abilities....then I'll be back to square one.

it wouldn't be so bad except when I look at my life as a series of defined goals, I really haven't been meeting any of them....

screw it...liquor stores will still be open when I wake up from a nap if I still feel like it...so will the online poker rooms.

RB